Brother Gun's 10-year e-sports dream: growth and perseverance

On January 16, Saint Gun Flandre celebrated the 10th anniversary of his career. On this special day, he shared his mental journey with fans through a long article, feeling the growth and persistence in the past ten years.

The content of the long article of the Holy Gun Brother:

Hello everyone, I'm Flandre who has something to say today. This sentence is a bit like retiring, but I don't have that idea yet.

The main reason for writing this Weibo is that today is the 10th anniversary of my debut [Koi Possession] There are not a few decades in my life, and I don't want to pretend that I don't care about it and fool the past, I want to say something to my brothers and sisters who care about the 10th anniversary as much as I do, so I stumbled and wrote it for a while and posted it. I thought about it for a long time before writing it, whether I should thank everyone for their support, or I cried bitterly and recalled the job I had worked for ten years, but a question popped up in my brain for some reason. It's been ten years, how did I get to where I am today? It's a shame for me to write about what I insisted on, but let's talk about the only time in ten years that I really wanted to give up.

I walked the streets for almost eight hours that night until dawn. In the first half of the night I kept asking myself, if I couldn't play anymore and didn't play professionally in the future, what else could I do? The answer seems to be that nothing can be done. In all these years, I've never been more lost than I was that night. My mind began to flash through the years of starting a career from snake, like a dying man starting to walk the horse. Just when I thought I was about to pack up and bury myself, I got a call from an old teammate.

Then one after another, calls from old friends who are on the same team and on different teams, who play professionally or not, came, and there was a kind of "Dude, am I not walking in the marquee, why did all the people in the lights run out?" "That's a feeling. The way they express their support is also different, some are very funny, some are very good at analyzing and comforting, and some are very direct, and they were silent and told me that they don't know how to comfort others, but if I am short of money, they can directly send me money...... I would like to give a special thanks to one of my teammates at the time, who said to me, "I would love to play with you, but I think it's more important for you to be happy." That's what I'm going to do, but you're different, you're the kind of person who can do everything well, you can decide whatever you want" He probably didn't know, but his words actually answered the question I had been questioning myself that night.

Later, I went back to my room and read a lot of fan letters. I know it's not easy to support someone who isn't going well, and I can't just be polite every time I hear a nod of "come on", or really have to cheer. After thinking about it calmly for a long time, I finally decided that I still had to believe in myself and insist on looking.

The reason why I say this today is because of the things that saved me that night: friends, reluctance, self-confidence, and not wanting to live up to the hearts of my fans, which are the same things that have sustained me for the past ten years, and they have been the same every time I have encountered difficulties in the past.

When I was younger, I often pressured myself, liked to scold myself for being useless, and I was also afraid that I would be useless to others, because if I was "useless", I would be abandoned immediately. There was a time when the competition was not going well, and I would wonder if it was useless to rank for so long. But then I saw the letter saying that when I was in rank, fans were studying, living in other countries, and staying up late and working overtime...... And then everyone gained strength because of it. It turns out that "useful" also happens in some places that I can't see. After that, I saw another sentence, called "useless use, only to be useful", that seemingly useless effort, frustration, age, will one day also have their own use?

So, thank you all for your help and tolerance over the past ten years, and for being my energy when I have blood and blue. I also had a lot of immaturity in the past, I reflected a lot, and I am trying to change on the way. I also wish everyone can be kind to the bad side of themselves, just like if you want to write persistence, you can't do without writing to give up, if you want to have courage, you may have to face your weakness, if you want to have a new beginning, you must accept the day when it will end at any time.

But I'm ready.

From confusion to firmness, from the trough to the peak, Brother Shenggun used his own experience to tell everyone that no matter what kind of difficulties we face, what really supports us is the support of our friends, our own beliefs, and the hearts of our supporters. Let's wish Brother Saint Gun a bright future career!